Things I've wanted to say...but love my charlemagne too much to do so

1. You suck...like actually your friendship was probably the biggest waste of my time. I feel like Im addicted to the drama you cause but I need to be free. Stop calling and texting and hurting. Let me move on and have a life.
2. Suck it up...we all have issues. However most of the real world has learned to cope (unlike you). You've had it hard but so have we: stop comparing yourself to the perfect idea of life and move on.
3. Every conversation I have with you kills me a little bit inside. I loved you so much and you used every bit of that love to your own gain. I want it back, but I know what you took is gone forever.
4. You were the content of roughly 100 poems I wrote...not a single one reflects you in a good light. Looking back, I can see how miserable you made me.
5. As much as I complain about you here, on my blog, I still call you when Im upset. You have become a crutch I cant walk very far without.
6. I still love you.
7. When you say you love me too I can hear that your lying. You seem to forget that ive lied too...I know what it sounds like.
8. I still hate you.
9. When you say you never hated me I can hear you lying. I know how much trouble Ive caused you (probably just as much as you caused me).
10. As much as I want you out of my life, I'm truly afraid of losing you.